1 Chronicles 4: 10 Jabez called upon the God of Israel, saying, “Oh that you would bless me and enlarge my border, and that your hand might be with me, and that you would keep me from harm so that it might not bring me pain!” And God granted what he asked.
Jabez’s prayer asking for God to take away his pains and struggles (that were prophesied on his life indicated by his name) resonated with me.
I expierence very difficult peroids of crippling anxiety where all I want to do is stay in my bed. Which I feel is the only place I can be safe.
These past weeks have been particularly difficult for me. I het conflicted though because sometimes I feel like I want the suffering gone but that may be trying to skip over the good work God is trying to do in me.
Regardless, I do find it comforting to read about the emotional struggles throughout scripture.
I pray for understanding, patience and strength in facing my anixety. I pray for relief of my emotional pain if it is within God’s will. I pray that some time soon I can view my suffering with joy and gladness and not hopelessness and despair.