I pray often for God’s spirit to spread outward from my heart, to do His will for those around me. Each time I pray that I begin to feel joyful but also a creeping thought of fear sinks in: what hard things will the Lord have me do?
On my journey I hold fast to God’s promise that He is always right beside me as I follow His commands. Even though my heart can know these promises and facts inside and out, my heart ends up feeling alone. Sometimes I get a hint of fear that tells me I need to figure it all out alone.
God is greater than what I feel. Somedays though I yearn just know what the rest of being complete with God in heaven must feel like, what the unending joy and awe might be like. For now I trust His ways and do what I can to ease a broken world.