Today’s post is a difficult one to write.

I am experiencing great difficulty with my mental health and I have been struggling quite a bit. I wasn’t sure I wanted to share this at all to be honest.

What I suffer with, besides the physical symptoms of my genetic condition, is the idea is getting medical help for something not trusting God?

My life is not threatened if I don’t seek medical attention, but I will likely suffer from despair and hopelessness more often if I don’t.

I can’t help wondering why this is happening? Did I do something wrong? Did I take something for granted? Should I not be trusting pharmaceutical companies at all?

I haven’t blamed God for my affliction but I have difficulty discerning a direction thinking the same course to equally from God or the enemy. I will hold fast to God despite my urge to curl myself up defeated.

5 thoughts on “Difficulties

  1. Oh Colton, my heart goes out to you. Writing this Blog was a wise thing to do. It allows us,who along with yourself and all believers are the Body of Christ, to support you in Prayer.
    God has Blessed us through the medical world with medications, surgical techniques etc. We wouldn’t hesitate to see a doctor to have a broken bone set.
    My husband suffered from depression and was greatly helped by medication.
    I recommend that you pray and ask God to lead you to the right doctor and to give the doctor wisdom whether you need to be on any medication and what medication that would help.
    I will pray for you as well.
    Pray and then Trust God. The Holy Spirit will Lead you and Guide you.
    May God Bless you and your wife and children.
    Your Blogs are a Blessing!


    1. Thank you Judith! There was a mistake made on my dosage from my doctor and I have been off my antidepressants for four days and am experiencing withdrawl symptoms. I have been distant and angry which is causing me guilt. I should have it solved but I still ask why now?


    2. Nothing wrong with getting help from doctors also .I suffer small depression for many years. I know lots of people who use God and others to help .Finding Freedom had a lot of good tools for some of this too.Prayers my friend .

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