Today’s post is a difficult one to write.
I am experiencing great difficulty with my mental health and I have been struggling quite a bit. I wasn’t sure I wanted to share this at all to be honest.
What I suffer with, besides the physical symptoms of my genetic condition, is the idea is getting medical help for something not trusting God?
My life is not threatened if I don’t seek medical attention, but I will likely suffer from despair and hopelessness more often if I don’t.
I can’t help wondering why this is happening? Did I do something wrong? Did I take something for granted? Should I not be trusting pharmaceutical companies at all?
I haven’t blamed God for my affliction but I have difficulty discerning a direction thinking the same course to equally from God or the enemy. I will hold fast to God despite my urge to curl myself up defeated.