I do my best to be honest on this blog. Some days I read my daily chapter of the bible and messages of love and insight come out, other days I don’t connect with the chapter and other days my mental health is so low it’s hard to come up with anything remotely insightful.
Today is one of those days.
I have been waking up lately with panic attacks. My anxiety peaks and I am unsure what is causing it. I feel lost, and nervous for what my work day will bring. My stomach is uneasy over things that have not happened. I feel like a prisoner in these feelings.
I listen to worship songs and read scripture and pray often but it doesn’t ease my feelings. I feel frustrated and disheartened. I think to myself: what am I doing wrong? What am I missing?
Do I really not love or trust God as much as I say I do? Do my circumstances dictate my moods more than my identity in Christ?
I pray for peace amidst my uneasiness, and I pray all of you who are also struggling with uneasiness and anxiety over our current health crisis that you are able to find peace.